a wrinkle in time.

time is a really funny thing. at least for me it is. i never feel it passing until these small little moments. like today i was putting my hair in a ponytail and realized it's wicked long. and i remember it being so short and me wanting it to be long SO bad. i wanted to not cut it for a year and then have enough of it to donate to locks of love. apparently almost a year has gone by since then... because my roommate jeff told me today at our coffee shop that he thinks i could cut 8 inches off and get away with a somewhat cute bob left. more to come this spring on this.

i also always realize that time passes because i change my oil later than i should. way later. i know it's bad. and i should change it earlier. but i forget, because time goes too fast and i feel like i changed it the week before.

and i desire so badly to be in perfect stride with time, to be present, as it's happening. and i guess i convinced myself earlier in life that i struggle with this? because i tell myself... "be present. don't look back too much and don't look forward too much. just be." and in the middle of this energy i devote to being present, i end up trying so hard to not look back and not look forward, that i waste all my time sitting in a place of worry smack dab in the middle of it all. and the irony is... in the middle of the past and future lies the present. so i guess i tricked myself. somehow. it's confusing and hard to explain. but maybe you know what i mean. and if you don't, that's OK too.

10 things i am presently loving with all my little heart has:

1 picking up the random sayings of the people you live with

2 spiced vanilla chai, special coffee, and diet coke (i love caffeine)

3 listening to the same CD over and over and over - thanks nicole :)

4 pretending LLBean slippers are shoes, because... "the bottoms are reinforced"

5 Gmail (duh.)

6 the fact that 30 and sunny is a gift

7 working in sweats and tee's from high school

8 a big hug from HB... every single time i come home

9 grey-ish purple nail polish

10 getting paid to eat, pray, love

yesterday was yesterday and tomorrow is tomorrow. and for today, for the TIME being, this is way more than enough.