Today there is no picture. I have no interesting story and as I am typing, don't have many words or feelings. Today I am quiet and sick and don't feel like being creative or having the wheels of my brain turn. I don't feel like talking or thinking. I want to stay in my leggings and my boyfriend's huge Red Sox sweatshirt and just be. I used to feel lazy or bad when I was in these kinds of moods. Since coming to Syracuse I have somehow learned to embrace them. It takes me a lot of mental energy to do what I do. And that's OK. There is no rule saying that I shouldn't feel drained sometimes. Drained it is. So on afternoons like today, I don't feel guilty for turning my mind off. Because far past the noise and sadness and sickness, I finally reach the calming silence I want to bask in - and wow, is this great. So, there is no fun story and there is no picture, but that does not make today, a quiet and unimportant Tuesday, any less noteworthy.
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